30 & living in NYC with travels near and far. This blog is scattered and sometimes incoherent. It's trivial and it's serious.
Does severe frustration and annoyance also love company? Because I am both and would love someone in this with me (in a way that would allow me to be ridiculous and vent and scream without coming off like a crazy person because I don’t know these people that well).
Just a little apple picking. I like my apples best when they’re straight from the tree.
11 years ago this pub was approximately 50% of my social life scenery. I still have vivid memories of the various rooms, the laughter, the bonds we built, the beer, the fat frogs, and the late night chips place across the street.
I am now wondering and day dreaming about a reunion. Unfortunately our crew is truly around the world. I may keep that dream alive. Perhaps at 15 years.
My mom says (she has a lot of other worldly experiences) you just say “listen- I know you’re trying to be in touch w me and I know you mean well, but I’m not ready for this. I’m scared. Please stop.” And they will go. No means no with ghosts.I have actually heard this from other people too. Thankfully, so far, I have managed to erect some sort of wall or otherworldly sign on me because I don’t actually have interactions or attempts. The only thing is the lights, which may or may not indicate anything but my gullibility.
Oh god I always ask my mom/roommates/boyfriend if they noticed a light flicker and they’re like “I have no idea what you’re talking about” and usually I just think I blinked hard or something. Now I’m going to think about ghosts.I apologize. I really have no proof that it’s true or accurate or whatever. I just know it happens a lot, whether only some people notice or what, I don’t know.
Freshman year of college the school hosted a Halloween event. They invited a married demon/ghost hunting team to come talk and share their stories. He was religious and she was a little bit psychic. He was home sick and so the wife did all of the sharing.
I don’t quite remember everything the way I did for the few years immediately after but one thing has really stuck. The wife explained that spirits need energy to feed off of. That some people attract spirits and others repel them. She said that if you noticed random electric lights going out or dimming in your presence frequently that you are someone who attracts spirits naturally.
Ghosts are my big issue. They are the one thing that really scares me. Its not a phobia but it’s intense for me. I don’t know whether I only notice lights going out or dimming because she said this (likely) or if I just never knew it meant something and so they didn’t really hit my radar.
Either way, it happens a lot. It’s mostly street lights I notice. In fact I frequently walk through an underpass tunnel in the Bronx and it happens about 95% of the time.
So I’ll just be over here living my life trying to mentally will away any spirits that might think I’m fun to hang out with.
3 years is an awfully long time. While we have seen each other since, we haven’t had a weekend like that. Miss these ladies.